Living Teal

Its been quite a week in the tech world. And I am writing this one on a Wednesday night, because "I no longer have enough in the tank" (thankyou Jacinda) , to wait for it to end. Layoffs continued through the weekend, and it gave me a reality check on life, and a check on my privilege. As I didn't have any home loan EMIs, medical bills or school fee to pay just yet.  However, I was surprised to see myself stuck in that rabbit hole of worrying about whats next, once the layoff season kicked off. Because on most days, I am too proud and full of artistic arrogance to bury myself in the day to day pursuits of adulthood - like taxes and insurances. And on the other, I know that I am not new to these uncertainties, thanks to my prior experience in the startup world. Where oscillating between the opposite ends of likelihood, from "we are very close to getting funded" to "Sorry we are bankrupt, and cant pay your bonuses." is very much prevalent. However it was...

It had been an eventful 2022. I got married! It took me 6 months to prepare for the when, the where, the whose-who & the how of it. And then, just in a blink and 4 days, I got married to the love of my life. I feel so grateful, for life to be this generous to me. I wish though, I expressed it more often. Spending a lifetime with a person who likes you for who you are is not just a gift, but also a part of our purpose.  Getting married changed things for me. Initially, I was hit by the inertia that had set everything in motion and I found myself rolling along with it, hitting one corner to the other. Suddenly I had to be the most responsible and perfect married woman out there. And I could only see myself failing. Making home cooked dinners was something I always wanted to do, and so was getting full authority over the kitchen. But I found that I was much slower than I liked and couldn't find time for anything else after it. I was also unable to maintain a squeaky clean house, a...